Good luck to you, mate. We will always be here. Never stop believing in yourself. My das has been through hell but he managed to get out of it. He had no solid income for about 5 years. The only thing he had was the "dream" of doing business with China. And now, he goes to places where nobody is allowed to enter. He's like a VIP, but for a whole nation.
He used to have no electricity, no gas, nothing. Indeed, no money means you can't have anything. He kept believing in himself and in China.
He always told me focus on the positive, not on the negative. I can understand that's really hard in your case. But once you focus on the negative, everything will go wrong. Try to find something that cheers you up, try to set small goals at first. Once you accomplish these, you will get more and more confident. Trust me.
This has been a great life lesson for my father. He truely had NOTHING. Yet he still kept his spirits up. And now, he has seen money doesn't necessarily make people happy. Only materialistic people care so much for stuff in order to be happy.
I really hope everything works out for you. I wish I could help you. In fact, do you know how much money you need? If all eGO members donate like 1-5 dollars we could keep you going?
I can't stand it not being able to help out.. especially if it's this serious.
Don't worry, it will all work out!
As I said in SteamChat, if you need anybody to talk to I'm here for you buddy.
seems like everything is going downhill and not turning back
