Hey guys!
Hope everyone is doing well, I've got to play tonight with few familiar faces (Immortal and hardwarebeer it was fun), and remember why I was so addicted to DODS.
Speaking of which, I wanted to say hello again and explain to a handful of my friends why I haven't been on for a while. Haven't seen them on tonight so I thought it would be nice to write at the forums for this and few other reasons.
I've gotten into serious gaming around last year (summer time) after having dropped out of college because of too much stress and also problems at home. It was a very tough tough time for me, since I was doing so well in college (3.7 gpa 5 classes with 3 volunteer work including an intern). Hell I was studying what I loved.
I wanted to try playing games again, so I payed 5 bucks for dods 1.3 cuz I remember loving that so much in high school. THen I ran into zombie panic source and ran into my first gaming clan. I ended up founding a clan with a server owner actually, and began to experience how fun it was playing games with a dedicated group of friends. Eventually majority of the group decided to stop playing videogames to enjoy the lives outside of video games.
Before leaving myself, I said I'll play day of defeat source once again, since I enjoyed the game so much in high school. Little did I know there was a non-cussing server in dods called eGO. I loved how the pubs and members that played were mature (which was extremely rare in zps). I wasn't too sure what to expect of eGO though, but after seeing how london blitz was like I decided to join eGO. It was kind of uncomfortable for me at first since I would open up to some eGO members and I really didn't get much of a reply back, but eventually after attending events I ran into people like iamwute (CONGRATS ON BEING A DAD) and of course bruce lee who were such fun characters on ventrillo. Of course soon after, I got to know others better.
I enjoyed most of my time with video games since, even though it was not perfect (as in I felt lonely many times still), it was still a great place for me to escape from real life. However it has taken over my life so much I could not have self control and carry out my responsibilities in real life.
I remember running into very few posts in the forums for those who struggle with my same problems (they were motivational for me). For those who can't just play games for a few hours a day or such, I encourage you to volunteer outside or just open yourself to others and make friends to hang out with. One of my main struggles was to do things outside of video games and open myself to other people. Of course there are lots of a-holes out there but move on and you might run into someone really friendly.
I'm proud to say I stopped my video game addiction, and play very rarely if ever (not there is something wrong playing regularly, but I lost interest in it for now). I spend time volunteering (tutoring) and even spend more time with family or spend time remodeling my 1 bedroom apartment.
Before I sign off, I wanted to thank those who were good to me in eGO and took the time to invite me to things and actually hang out other than eGO events and such.
And Meg I never got the chance to congratulate you on getting DL, you are one of the sweet people here who takes the time to recognize others by giving awards or those awesome animated gifs.
To my friends I'll be on ventrillo on holidays if I don't have plans. Hope to see yall again one day.
All the best,
CushyCush aka CushionyCushion
Oh btw I'm turning 22 today! Can you believe it, still haven't drank a single cup of beer yet though ahha
You've inspired me quite a bit to pick my own self up. It's hard, it really is. Good luck out there bro.
Happy birthday! :3
