I'm so sorry littlebeer. I don't know the pain you ate going through but I know one thong, your father will always be watching over you and is very proud of you
He was a great man, who will continue to live on in the hearts and minds of everyone he touched. I know he is watching over you and would want the best for you. I don't understand the pain you are going through, but i'm always here if you need someone to talk with. My sincerest condolences to you and your family beer.